Sweet Single Life

I dont know… It’s all good man, I like it. I mean I’m well enough with my friends and yes the good part is im not deprive. Nyahaha.. Whch I cant and wont discuss in detail here. But anyway I would just like to take my time in appreciating this moment. of singleness.

CURRENT STATUS: Single, delusional, but ready to fuck around. (kidding about the third one) but happy.

It’s not about getting laid guys

Trust me I’m getting it. Hahaha.. I guess I’ve just been busy with work (but rest assure not with getting laid) and all. I don’t even get to see my family that often. I’m staying at a new place now. I just woke up. It’s my rest day today. I saw that there was an internet cafe while I was on my way to get breakfast. So I might as well drop by to check on you guys right? But anyhow, my blooping days have been smooth lately. I want to save money so I could travel again, while I’m still not back in school and all. But I’ll be back soon.

 For the last couple of sleepless days, I’ve been talking to people half the worlds hemisphere away from me. But all is well.

Sorry, Ive been pretty busy, but i might be going online more often than I use to know that I found an internet shop near where I live. Yehey!

bored

For some reason, I don’t seem to be able to relate to my friends anymore. I get bored whenever I’m with them now. Probably because we now have different priorities. It sucks though. Not being able to enjoy the company of others. Seriously, I think I’ve change. I don’t know how. It just happened. Its hard to explain. I feel so alone now. I don’t like this feeling. Its been awhile since I last felt this way.

 I left them all in the middle of something. Maybe this is just a phase. I hope so. I don’t even drink that much anymore. Or even smoke- for the record just one stick which is so unlike me. Its been awhile. I dont know what just happened.

I’m spending time with my Dad today. Jan’s Mom just arrived. I’m suppose to be with them. But my Dad needed my phone and I guess I missed spending time with my Dad. I haven’t been able to stay at home for the last few days. So I guess I’m feeling a bit guilty about it.

BTW,
I just had to put in. I’ve lost respect for her. And most of the people who knew what happened has already did too. Well except for those kiss-ass watchamacallem. but anyhow I could have been one of her loyal friends. I always protected her. Even with her family. Well I hope your happy with all your kiss ass friends. remember they’ll be gone.

I remember hearing myself wanting to work and be rich so I could grant her trips. I idolized her that much at that time. But now, God, hahahaha.. You make me sick.

God’s sake leave me alone

Shit. Why cant you guys understand that this is just my own little world of delusion and non of this has to be true? Or untrue for that matter. Its a fiction. A day to day delusional ranting that some poeple just have to take so seriously to find reasons to destroy someone’s future. I cant believe this! Argh… You know who you are. I never thought you would stoop down to this level. Why oh why…

but anyway. hahaha.. just my over reacting way of saying. Please dont take any of my writings seriously. It’s a fiction. Its how I want things to happen. Especially with the girlfriend word. Because I really dont. Its just fun to do so, even though she’s just a friend now. I just wanted to make things clear. Just so people who know me personally would just leave me alone! gr!

But I must say, I love you all. You spice up my life. Nyahahaha…

Anyway, I tried updating awhile ago but somethng went wrong. It’s depressing. I mean… I have spies of my own. Its just amazing how people just turn up to be such bastards. Well I guess I knew before hand how she was. Its just that I just never really imagined it.

let me be.

Good Morning.

I just finished my Math 25 final exam and dont ask me about it. It didnt turn out well. I wont be needing that subject since I’ll be shifting to a different course – If I wont be working this sem that is. I’m in the library right now. I just read my e-mails and posted one of the nice e-mails I receieved here on the previews entry. This entry might just come out very trivial.

But anyway…

I’m suppose to be waiting for a friend. She’ll be doing her research on something. She’s the only one in our group (and Joey) that isn’t lost. I’ll be helping her anyway. She’s graduating. Pysch din siya.

My parents gave me a new cellphone. Nokia 1110i. I like it.

thanks papa thanks mama.

YOu wana see comments?!

An e-mail from my long distance bestfriend.

This is what a real friend is.

why unsa may problem??? ok ra na.. the trick is, dont thing about the future and whats ahead, mag-worry ra ka ana without accomplishing anything. just do things one day at a time.

isulat mo mga stuffs na dapat mong gawin, like think of a new course, ug uban pa nimo nga priorities…

dayon, every day you wake up, exert all your effort on finishing as many as you can. unsa man gud imong problem????

From your blog:

I’m scared of facing the world now (ayaw kahadluk! if you keep being scared, wala kay ma-accomplish jd, unya you keep thinking and thinking and worrying without doing anything).

I seem to be liking my life as a  bumm lately(ayaw magpaka bum kay dili milyonaryo imong payrents!!! bruha ka. hehe, study jud!).

And to  top it off I really dont know what to do with my life. I dont have a degree in mind. And my options as to what course I’ll be shifting to isn’t really something that might be able to feed my in the future. (kana jd imong dapat nga top priority right now, and dont think about the future job opportunities, as long as you get good grades, ok na na, mabuhi naka ana. hehe.

like I said, unsa ba jd imong ganahan nga i-study, dili ka ganahan ARTS? well baka di pumayag parents mo, pero try mo rin sila kausapin, tell them your confused, they will be very willing to help. Or better yet go to the guidance and counselling center ng Silliman, ingna nga ganahan ka mag kuha ug test to know your hidden skills and talents and hidden interests para it will help you be able to choose the course wisely.

Right now mahirapan jud ka mag-shift na daghan ma-credit kay bio gd na, wala may botany or zoology or physiology sa business or sa arts, usually basic sciences ra na sila, so wala na kay mabuhat ana, kanangalan jud i-disregard ang mga bio subjects nimo kung mag-shift ka. kung ganahan ka, suggest ra nako, mag BS Psychology ka, si Lyle (melancholic mutt) Psych man to sa Silliman before sya nag-transfer diri. and ma-credit imong botany ug zoology ana, if Im right.

And even though
The moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
'Cause all the dreams
You never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that
You never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame

But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell
No one your name
And I won't tell 'em
Your name

And scars are souvenirs
You never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself
Somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad
To know that life
Is more than who we are

We grew up way too fast
And now there's
Nothing to believe
Reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing
On a tired radio
And I won't tell
No one your name
And I won't tell 'em
Your name
I won't tell 'em
Your name
Mmm, mmm, mmm

I won't tell 'em
Your name
Ow
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are
Come back down,
And I won't tell 'em
Your name

SCARED

I’m scared of facing the world now. I seem to be liking my life as a  bumm lately. And to   top it off I really dont know what to do with my life. I dont have a degree in mind. And my options as to what course I’ll be shifting to isn’t really something that might be able to feed my in the future.
Joey will be leaving soon. Back home and wont be coming back. —nothing to do with my future but something that’s also been bugging me for the last couple days.

And there’s all my friends being lost too. *sigh* God what’s happened. One of my friends use to say that we were the untouchables. It was true in a way. we all had a good future ahead of us. We couldnt really point out what went wrong. its just did. piece by piece it seemt o fall off what we have.

I hope it leaves more. but then if it doesnt i hope we’ll all be able to build on a new castle. We have to. We cant just run around and be like this for the rest of our lives. The good thing I guess is that were young and we still have so much ahead of us. I just hope we’ll make use of it.

raining hard too.